Family As Your Anxiety Source

Not everyone is blessed with a good family. I am also in that category. They destroy your childhood, and then when you are an adult, they constantly bother you, and you feel like an unwelcomed guest in your house.

And even your siblings do that, like they own everything you have and have no boundaries. I feel like they are enemies that invade your house. It is getting to a point where there is no love for them, just hate, but I tolerate them because they are “family.”

I have been talking with my therapist, and it turns out all the anxiety and anger issues I have are coming from them. An unhealthy, unbalanced, and unsafe environment does that to a person. If you are not respected growing up, you end up feeling a lot of resentment and anger towards everyone.

Ever since they started visiting, I have anxiety and anger for no reason. I am realizing all of the issues I have. I have them because of them. I always say all I want to have is some peace and quiet. Apparently, that desire comes from not having a peaceful childhood. Always being on the edge.

All these feelings came back rushing the moment my sibling came visiting with their family. The house is full of chaos, and the small children they have are a nightmare to deal with. Every time I see them, I am reminded of why I don’t like children. I would lose my damn mind. They filled all the space available in the house. There is no peace for me even in my small office/bedroom at this point. The healthiest thing to do for me is to stay the f-ck away from them and hope that they leave sooner. I will not let them visit me ever again. Since the house is family-owned, I cannot stop them from using it, but if they force it, I will stay in a hotel.

Need I say more? Stay away from the toxic people in your life.